It took me until the day before New Year’s Eve to get my thoughts together. Well, they’re not together, but I am hoping by the end of this post they will be.
Another year has gone by. Wow. And what a year it’s been.
Last year at this time, I had just left my first living “situation” and I was sleeping on my friend’s couch anxiously awaiting my official move-in to my new apartment with my coworker. I was also wondering how my New Year’s Eve would turn out, because for the first time ever, I had actual plans that warranted me wearing a sparkly dress and heels. Well, I can let you know that the night was super fun, and I am still impressed that I got myself up on New Year’s Day to make the move.
If I told myself that a year later I would be writing my year review from New Jersey and I no longer rented an apartment in Los Angeles, I would be shocked. I’m definitely not the only one who feels shocked about this year, though, for obvious reasons.
2020 was a year of deep reflection and drastic change for me. I truly thought that after the chaos I went through at the end of 2019, 2020 was going to be different. Well, “different” is definitely a good word to use. As I have said in previous posts, I left Los Angeles in March for what I thought would be a two-week trip home to see my family before I went back to working in-person at my job. Well, I never went back. I spent March through June hopping between different states to spend time with both my family and my boyfriend at the time’s family. Then, I had the best summer I could have ever imagined during a worldwide pandemic spent with friends, family, and my family’s new boat.
At the end of the summer, I got a second job and was working nearly 70 hours a week. My new job then turned into my main and only job after about two months. As summer changed into fall, I made the trip back to Los Angeles to pack up, drive home, and officially move back to New Jersey. I also had a major relationship status change after two years — and boy am I thankful I did.
I am thankful for everything that happened to me in 2020. I think through all of the changes I went through, the universe was trying to teach me to accept the things I can’t control, and work hard at the things I can. When life gives you lemons, you make lemonade. And when life gives you everything but the kitchen sink, you organize it and complete it with a sink of your choice. Does that make sense? I hope it does to someone.
What I am trying to say is I could have never in my wildest dreams imagined what 2020 became for me, but that is life. I have tried to move in a positive direction and thought thoroughly through the many hard decisions I had to make this year. I truly believe that if you do things with positive intentions, at least some of them will work out. Here’s to hoping some of my 2020 decisions lead me in the right direction in a hopefully safer and cleaner 2021.